These Are the Fast Times.

Nothing extremely new has happened within these few days. I don't expect anything exciting to happen either. I'm tremendously boring & negative at times from which I apologize. Many stressors are on me these days, but I'll complain of them later.
Right now, I'll talk about something interesting that did sort of happen today. Not really interesting more...sad.
My dad decided to let me out of the house & run some errands with him later tonight. First, we grabbed some medicine for my mom & then later on when it was dark, we grabbed dinner & an assortment of different nick-knacks.
As we drove, I got this feeling. Last summer feeling. I didn't realize how magical my Freshman year was & how truly the days leading up to it were important in my life memory-wise.
I remember last summer I begged my parents to buy me the new Academy Is... CD, 'Fast Times At Barrington High'. I was addicted to it. Listening to it at a constant. Even the night before my first day of school began, I listened to it coming home from my sister's house BBQ. Up until even way after school started I still listened to this CD constantly. I used to joke that it was my "school CD". So, when we drove all the memories came back. The summer; The fun. I listened to the songs & fell in love all over again.
So, I realized that my Freshman year in High School so far was the most amazing year of my life. Honestly it was. A new life, new friends, new teachers, new privileges, new faces, old faces. Everything different in the best way. Of course, if you asked me this a few months before we let out for the summer I would've been like, "Are you kidding me?! I hated this year!" But, I really didn't. I met new friends who I can laugh with, I learned my way around a place I thought was impossible to understand, I met people I was acquainted with in kindergarten. Most of all, I learned & saw a place where I knew the significant time in my life would take place. Someone copy, paste, & save these words I'm about to type for the record, but I think I'm actually excited for school this year. I miss everyone & the classes I'm taking this year are ones that I will enjoy learning about. I want to see what this year will bring & what will happen in my on-going memories here. & what would a year without drama bring? Can only expect tons of that, I suppose...
But, this year I want to fall in love. None of this, "Oh, I like you...blahblahblah." No lies, no cheating, no two-second romances. Something I'm happy in, something that makes a difference in my life. Something I can experience & say I've done. Long-lasting for sure.
I don't really know what my Sophomore year can bring. I know, this is something I should be writing a week or day before school starts back up again, but right now I feel inspired & moved.
& since right now nothing in my life is exciting or interesting enough to think about, falling back on memories is never a bad thing, I guess. It replaces the thoughts on what I'm doing in my life right now. It over-shadows the unhappiness I'm feeling right now.
& suddenly, I'm 14 years old again, frantic about my first year in high school, afraid I'll get lost, nervous what a year in a new school will bring, about how I would react to the "big times", & yet just enjoying the summer days where I can go & do whatever I please...