When I Go Out I Want to Go Out On a Chariot of Fire.

This past week has been by far a great one. If only every week could be like this... But, I know it can't always be the like that. In this past week I have hung out with my sister, gotten a break from reality several times, been face to face with a bad habit of mine, taken steps to getting help, felt loved like any other time in my life, went to a carnival a few times for the first time in a year or so, became fond of a certain band, seen friends I miss terribly, met new friends, & so much more.
But, today & Thursday were great. Carnivals are a mixture of fun & agony. When you find that one ride that soothes you, makes you feel good, & a ride you promise you'll continue going on while you're at the carnival; it's fun. Agony in a sense that your friends beg you to try one ride they like which happens to be one you've promised yourself you'll never go on. Yet, it's fun too. But, what I never got to see in such a long time is the true beauty that a carnival is all lit up at night or when the sun begins to set. Even if it's in your own town, there's nothing more gorgeous than that. What's eerier is seeing a whole carnival shut down. Lights after lights closing, rides stopping, people leaving. & forgive me if it sounds weird, but I've never experienced that. It's something nice if you're not a big carnival-go-er like me.
This week sure has had it's boring & complete tough moments, but maybe next week will be like that too. You never know... I can't foresee what I'll be like weeks from now. I want to, but I can't.
You take things day by day. Step by step. I'm realizing that & a certain someone is teaching it to me. I thank god for him or my life wouldn't be what it's beginning to form into. He's given me the strength to get better. Friends like that you don't get often & when you do, you don't want to let them go. I feel loved currently. (;