Summer Sudder.

Wow. It has not been about 2 weeks since my last post, has it? I guess so. Time sure flies, though. Not even when you're having fun. But, that's life & not everything is always exciting.
So, I am basically writing this blog out of sadness right now. Today was my last full day of summer & tomorrow I start back-up at FHS as a Sophomore. And I have mixed feelings about everything. At one point, I'm sad to see summer leave because I know it's going to be a while until we see it again. The freedom was nice while it lasted along with the warm weather. But, then again, the summer has been the most un-fun one I've had yet. Sure, Cape Cod was fun along with my sister's cookout and even going to my other sister's house for a few days. But, the knee surgery with my mom has limited me from doing a lot of normal summer things. I've already ranted about this, so I won't use anymore detail on the subject. But, seasons come & go; that's life. You just have to learn to live it & deal with it.
Mixed emotions about school also are approaching me right now. The idea that my classes this year shouldn't be so bad; English, US history, Geometry, Astronomy/Oceanography, Orchestra, & more. Those seem to grab my attention more than last year's classes, so I pray to god this won't be a horrible graded year. But, friends that weren't in my classes last year whom I hoped would be this year, aren't. Along with close friends who were in classes last year & this year aren't even close to me. Freshman coming in & realizing what it's like to not be the 'little kids' of the school anymore. Being a sophomore this year I can tell that not every class is in one wing, but far more spread out. Should be fun carrying loads of books everywhere. Oh! The stressors of school, welcome back...
But, this morning has been an interesting one. Before school starts back up or something of importance is about to happen, no matter how tired I am, sleep never occurs. I lie awake thinking until I finally fall asleep, only to wake up soon enough. So, I wanted to try an all-nighter. Boy, did I get one. Spent my time online fixing things, to watching 'Phantom of the Opera'. I watched the sunrise & even made coffee, pen & paper in hand, as I sat down outside in the cold air to write some of the best lyrics I've written in a while. I am proud of them, although I'll never share them with anyone, hahaha. I seemed all energized & eager to get ahead with different things, but the fatigueness hit like a sack of bricks. I slept off & on a total of 3 hours with my mom's physical therapist & visiting nurse checking her out in total now. We're fully free from the VA! And no, that does not mean Virginians...
Thankfully, they're gone. I hated them a lot. Except, Nancy, hahaha.
But, what I realized about the days in general is that time flies quickly throughout the night. Literally, it felt like I had just watched 'Phantom of the Opera' ( at 4 AM) when I was sitting out on the deck watching the sun slowly rising (at 7 PM). Days pass quickly & nights go even faster. I feel like that's what I learned most this summer. Time really does go by in a flash & all your actions you can't take back no matter how much you may or may not want to.
Now, if only this school year could fly...Hahaha.